Feeling down

[morganskye]

I really feel crappy today. Not in the 'getting over a cold' way, or the 'Ugh I have to work' way. But the 'I'm freaking depressed' way. I'm listless, and I really don't want to work or do much of anything really. The littlest thing makes me moody and angry. All I want is to be left alone with some fried chicken and a box of chocolate. Yes, I'm pms-ing. A LOT.

Barry called a few minutes ago. There are times when he calls that all he wants is for me to do something for him, and that's it. He doesn't want to talk, or even seems a little interested in what's going on with me. I know it's a mean thing to think because I know he doesn't mean it that way. I just feel like I'm only useful to him at certain times. Again, it's wrong of me to think like that. It's nice that he calls at all.

Another thing that gets me is that 99.9% I'm the one saying I love him. He very very rarely says it first. I know it's not a contest to see who can say it more, but it would be really nice if he said it unprompted once in a while.

Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to the bathroom to cry.

Comments

[aarana.livejournal.com]

*pet pet*

Do I see PMS talking??

My advice, wait till the mood swings pass, and if you still feel that way (I used to say that to myself ALOT durring those times about all my Ex's...they never say it enough, he doesn't love me blah blah...and then later I would call myself an idiot cause I know it wasn't true) then talk to him about it. Sometimes it really isn't the style of the person to say it. Doesn't mean he doesn't mean it. If you are still feeling neglected after the PMS wears off...totally talk to him about it. You have feelings too, and he needs to address them also! Im sure he doesn't even know that he's doing what he's doing. Unless you knock him in the head a little and let him know that you feel that way, he won't know to fix it ;)

Im sure he loves you!!

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

Heh, thanks for the advice. I went out for lunch instead of eating at my desk. That helped a lot. And you're right, he doesn't do it on purpose and I am calling myself an idiot for thinking it. I know he loves me. I just need to stop being so paranoid about it. ^_^

[aarana.livejournal.com]

Bah, I wouldn't call you an idiot, I would call PMS an idiot ;)

But seriously, ask him why he doesnt say it more, not in a threatening GRRR way, but more in curiosity. Maybe he doesn't even realize he doesn't say it first.

*snuggle*

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

I'll talk to him about it. *hugs* Thanks. ^_^

[jim-sama.livejournal.com]

i'll randomly say to my woman " Hey hon, guess what?" "?" "I love you :x"

of course, she expects it now, so it's more like "hey hon, guess what?" "You love me" "um... yes. grrr, how'd you know >:[~ "

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

Hehe, I used to do that to him too. Now I can't say 'guess what?' to him anymore. Ah well. It was fun while it lasted.

[missmalade.livejournal.com]

PMS sucks. It's good you went out for lunch, being outside really helps. I like talking short walks at work and I come back feeling better. But my PMS can be pretty bad, so I kind of hole up within myself lest I bite someone's head off.

Sorry it was such a hard day for you. *HUG* I hope you feel better now! When I feel down, I put on my HP robe. ;) Maybe you should wear those ears!

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It did get a bit better. At least I didn't bite anyone's head off. ^_^