Feeling down
Mar. 2nd, 2006 11:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganskyeI really feel crappy today. Not in the 'getting over a cold' way, or the 'Ugh I have to work' way. But the 'I'm freaking depressed' way. I'm listless, and I really don't want to work or do much of anything really. The littlest thing makes me moody and angry. All I want is to be left alone with some fried chicken and a box of chocolate. Yes, I'm pms-ing. A LOT.
Barry called a few minutes ago. There are times when he calls that all he wants is for me to do something for him, and that's it. He doesn't want to talk, or even seems a little interested in what's going on with me. I know it's a mean thing to think because I know he doesn't mean it that way. I just feel like I'm only useful to him at certain times. Again, it's wrong of me to think like that. It's nice that he calls at all.
Another thing that gets me is that 99.9% I'm the one saying I love him. He very very rarely says it first. I know it's not a contest to see who can say it more, but it would be really nice if he said it unprompted once in a while.
Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to the bathroom to cry.
Barry called a few minutes ago. There are times when he calls that all he wants is for me to do something for him, and that's it. He doesn't want to talk, or even seems a little interested in what's going on with me. I know it's a mean thing to think because I know he doesn't mean it that way. I just feel like I'm only useful to him at certain times. Again, it's wrong of me to think like that. It's nice that he calls at all.
Another thing that gets me is that 99.9% I'm the one saying I love him. He very very rarely says it first. I know it's not a contest to see who can say it more, but it would be really nice if he said it unprompted once in a while.
Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to the bathroom to cry.