Here we go

[morganskye]

Like Popey, I have a case of 'I don't give a fuck'. I seriously don't. This is going to come out bad, and I'm sorry, but I don't want to read posts. I don't want to help people at work. I don't want to deal with people period. I'm very angry and I know why but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm pissed that I can't live on my own yet. I'm pissed that I have to wait for everything I want. I'm missing out on everything because I have other responcibilities and debts to pay. I can't go to cons and see my friends. I can't get new clothes even though I'm wearing massive holes in what I have. I'm so mad I could spit. I have to wait and wait and wait and fucking WAIT! I'm not pitching a fit because I have to have it all now, but damn it, it'd be nice if I could at least see the light at the end of the tunnel. Right now it's as if I'll always be living at home with two jobs that run me into the ground. I can't remember the last time I could afford to buy a pair of work pants, or when I didn't have to re-arrange my bills to make ends meet. I'm just so tired of this shit. I don't want to be perky or happy or oh-so-positive. Fuck it. If those around me want to think of me as a bitch today, then fine. If they leave me alone is better for everyone.

In less bitchy news...
I really wish I could have been at AB. It sounded great.
I was able to convince Barry that joining our two stores is a good idea. He has games, I've got anime. They're a natural match.
Once again it's been suggested that I pose for fetish magazines. Once again I think about it, but push the idea away because I feel that Barry wouldn't like it. I know it shouldn't matter if he likes it or not since it's my body, but I don't want to lose him over something stupid.

*sigh* I just want to leave.