An elegantly wasted life.

There are times, like today, when I feel like I have done nothing with my life and probably never will. I have no real skills. Sure, I got a decent job but I think it was luck more than anything. I can cross-stitch and makes scarves. Woop. I wanted to be a great costumer like sarcasm_hime. I wanted to have a great education like Trish or Erin. I mean, Trish is a librarian at the National Library for Kami's sake. I want that. I don't want to be fat. I don't want to just go through life, waiting to die. I want to be someone people will remember. I don't want to be useless to myself, and to others. I know people look down on me. I get it a lot. I'm used to it. I think my problem is that I just don't care anymore. It doesn't get me anywhere. I don't have many friends. Barry is really my only local outlet now that Erin has moved on. I've had to give up hobbies because of money. I work just to pay my bills. I can't go out and have fun like I used to. Now my idea of fun is playing video games with Barry. There's nothing wrong with that. I love my man, but I miss my old happy life. I miss Erin and Angie. I miss going places. I miss being wanted. I miss the feeling I got when someone came to me to talk, instead of me hunting them down. I feel like I've outlived my usefulness. 24 years old and obsolete.

An elegantly wasted life.

There are times, like today, when I feel like I have done nothing with my life and probably never will. I have no real skills. Sure, I got a decent job but I think it was luck more than anything. I can cross-stitch and makes scarves. Woop. I wanted to be a great costumer like sarcasm_hime. I wanted to have a great education like Trish or Erin. I mean, Trish is a librarian at the National Library for Kami's sake. I want that. I don't want to be fat. I don't want to just go through life, waiting to die. I want to be someone people will remember. I don't want to be useless to myself, and to others. I know people look down on me. I get it a lot. I'm used to it. I think my problem is that I just don't care anymore. It doesn't get me anywhere. I don't have many friends. Barry is really my only local outlet now that Erin has moved on. I've had to give up hobbies because of money. I work just to pay my bills. I can't go out and have fun like I used to. Now my idea of fun is playing video games with Barry. There's nothing wrong with that. I love my man, but I miss my old happy life. I miss Erin and Angie. I miss going places. I miss being wanted. I miss the feeling I got when someone came to me to talk, instead of me hunting them down. I feel like I've outlived my usefulness. 24 years old and obsolete.

Funny

I find it interesting that I got this when I've been so down lately. Go figure.

you are lavender #E6E6FA

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Funny

I find it interesting that I got this when I've been so down lately. Go figure.

you are lavender #E6E6FA

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

yah, I didn't even know it was down

The Great LiveJournal Outage of 2005 During the outage I had a normal life. What did you do? Brought to you by geek-foo

yah, I didn't even know it was down

The Great LiveJournal Outage of 2005 During the outage I had a normal life. What did you do? Brought to you by geek-foo