I'm so smart it's sick

Scarcasm drips from that statement.

A few minutes ago Barry called me with a problem. I tried to talk him through it, which usually works. However, this time in my attempt I only freaked him out. Go me. I thought talking about having a happy life with me there as a mental support would make him feel better. Apparently not. I'm a stupid stupid girl! I'm scaring away a wonderful man. For some ungodly reason I made a wrong turn somewhere with him. I'm going to loose what could be the best thing that ever happened to me. Part of me says to step back and let things cool. The other side is terrified that if I do he'll leave, thinking that I don't care anymore. I can't not be with him. He means so much it sometimes hurts. But I'm so scared that no matter what I do it'll be wrong.

I'm so smart it's sick

Scarcasm drips from that statement.

A few minutes ago Barry called me with a problem. I tried to talk him through it, which usually works. However, this time in my attempt I only freaked him out. Go me. I thought talking about having a happy life with me there as a mental support would make him feel better. Apparently not. I'm a stupid stupid girl! I'm scaring away a wonderful man. For some ungodly reason I made a wrong turn somewhere with him. I'm going to loose what could be the best thing that ever happened to me. Part of me says to step back and let things cool. The other side is terrified that if I do he'll leave, thinking that I don't care anymore. I can't not be with him. He means so much it sometimes hurts. But I'm so scared that no matter what I do it'll be wrong.