*grumble hiss whine*

[morganskye]

I feel like complete ass today. I've been feeling cruddy since yesterday morning and I have no idea what's wrong with me...well I do know, but it's not something to discuss in public. Apparently my TMI censor is on. Anyway, because I'm feeling like ick it's been really hard to stick to my diet. It's not that I want a Triple Bypass Cheeseburger or any other specific cravings. I just want FOOD. I don't care what it is. Put it in front of me and it's gone. So far I've been able to drown my stomach in water and tea, but it won't work for much longer. I think I'll be evil and get a low-cal sub from Subway. Bread is a good filler. Empty, but good. Plus getting out of the office for a few minutes will help.

I've got almost all of my fabric sorted, ironed, and stored. There's two tubs of scraps and samples in my closet still that I'm probably going to get rid of. Once everything is together I'll let myself start sewing. My cleaning and organizing efforts have already paid off as I found paints and trims that I bought on sale over a year ago and misplaced. Now I have no excuses not to finish Telma and make Clara in time for ConCarolinas. Nehelenia might be an issue for ConTemporal, but only because of the material costs. At least I already have her wig.

I need it to be 5pm on Friday now please. So sleepy. :(

Comments

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

Doc doesn't want me eating any nut products, which blows because I LOVE peanut butter. I'm guessing it has to do with the calorie count. I'm only allowed 1k a day.

[fluffydragon.livejournal.com]

HOLY SHIT. You're only allowed 1,000 calories a day?

You need to stop right now and eat at least 1,200 calories and more - for you probably more like 1,600. eating 1,000 calories a day is literally not enough to support your organs. that low of an amount is going to wreck your metabolism.

Your body is trying to tell you that you're doing something wrong - if you're hungry, you must eat.

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

Any other time I would agree with you 100%, however I'm going through a clinic directly tied to my PCP's office. Every time I go in I get a full workup including an EKG. Dr. Amy calls weekly to check on me (I go in monthly). I also don't work out just yet. Doc said that once I'm under 300 then it's safer for me to exercise. Once that happens I go up to 1200. That's only 5 pounds away :)

[fluffydragon.livejournal.com]

well, I'm glad you're being monitored, but please be careful. You can put yourself in starvation mode on so few calories, and it can wreck your metabolism. I'm not trying to make you paranoid, but you are hurting your body if you aren't eating when you really need to, doctor or no doctor.

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

I'll be careful, I promise. If I'm hungry I do eat. Also, I only take 1/2 of my hunger pill so that I don't completely trick myself.

[ssfseiyakou.livejournal.com]

If you say so, but I honestly think it's a load of crap.

[morganskye.livejournal.com]

Trust me, I thought the same thing. However she sat down with me, answered all my questions, and explained why she felt I could work with 1k. She was very insistent that she doesn't want me to feel like I'm getting pills then thrown out the door. I feel comfortable with things right now. However when I start working out I'm going up to 1200 at minimum.

[ssfseiyakou.livejournal.com]

1000 calories a day?

Get a new doctor.

No, seriously. That is absolute BULLSHIT. YOUR METABOLISM WILL SHUT DOWN. I'm not kidding. At your weight, you most likely need to start at 2500, then work down to NO LESS than 1700 a day.

You are starving yourself. The end.